we have a heart beat

Got to see Rayne again today.  The baby is doing very well and only measured 2 days behind this time.  Again, not something I'm going to worry about.  Rayne's heart was beating at 143BPM. I'm so happy that everything is going the way it should.

waste of time

That's what I felt like yesterdays appointment was, a waste of my time.  I was running late but only by 15 mins.  By the time I got seen the lab had closed so I didn't get a beta.  I did get a form to have it done.  So I can go during my lunch today, if I feel like traveling a bit.  Not sure if I do.  I might wait till tomorrow.  I also got a script for another ultrasound.  This time I made sure he was clear with instructions.  He also gave me my script for more progesterone with refills to fill later this month.  I have to take those until I hit 12 weeks.  He didn't really look me over, just took my weight, BP and talked for a moment.  He wants me back in 2 weeks and I have to have the ultrasound done before then.  Oh and to top it off they didn't even have the results of the ultrasound I took on Friday.  I told him what we saw, but he needs detailed reports.  Ughhh what a waste!

there is a baby in there...

OK first of holy shit this morning was crazy stressful.  My OB is great, but he lack communication skills.  So it was hell trying to get seen because his instructions, yet again, were not clear.  After an hour of going back and forth we got it all straighten out and I got seen.  I got to see my Rayne and things looks just fine.  Rayne implanted in the uterus as "she" should.  The only down side is that we didn't get a chance to see a heart beat.  But that's because I measured 3 days behind.  I should be 5 weeks 6 days, but I only measured at 5 weeks 3 days.  Three days is no big deal so I'm not even concerned.  We got to see the gestational sac, yolk sac and fetal pole.  That put me at ease like you don't believe.  The doctor there likes to oversee everything once it's all done and he said it all looked good.  His only recommendation is to follow up in 2 weeks with another ultrasound to see a heart beat. 


My OB should have the results today, and I follow up with him on Monday.  He wants to do another blood draw then and I should have numbers again on Wed.  I'll talk to him about a follow up ultrasound.  I wouldn't mind another one.  Especially before year end and my new years insurance deductible kicks in.   Are you ready to meet Rayne?  I can't wait to meet Rayne in August, but for now pictures will have to do.

Rayne

anxiety has kicked in

So tomorrow is the big ultrasound day.  I've been fine and dandy about this pregnancy this entire time.  But now I'm afraid that something is going to be wrong tomorrow.  That they're not going to see anything and that the only thing causing my early pg symptoms as well as keeping af at bay, is the progesterone I'm taking.  I know I shouldn't worry.  I know deep down that things will be just fine.  But geesh this anxiety is kicking in hard and scaring the shit out of me.  Oh please let things be OK and let me see my baby developing the way she (wishful thinking) should be.

stupid headache

Oh how I wish it would go away already.  I can't stand having headaches, especially when I can't take shit for it.

holy bloat batman!

Damn I'm bloated like a mofo right now!  I feel so much further along than I actually am.  The funny thing is that even though I know it's bloat and fat, I can't help but rub and love it. 

5 weeks 2 days

5 weeks today

I made it 5 weeks.  That's longer than I made it with Roo.  I'm glad I've met two of my 3 small goals. My next goal is to either see or hear the heartbeat.  Once that happens, I'll truly be at ease knowing I've met my small goals.  It's finally sinking in that this one appears to be sticking.  I'm so thrilled to know I've made it to this point so far.  

On the 9th I have my first ultrasound, hopefully I'll be able to see a heartbeat since I would be 5 weeks 6 days.  I know it be a long shot, but not completely unthinkable.  Oh and because I'm freaking neurotic, I had to POAS today.  Just to see how it would look at 20DPO.  And I must say damn that's a lovely dark ass line.  It's darker than the control.  I swear I will no longer test.  I just got a bug up my ass that I couldn't resist.  My remaining tests, OPKs included, will be going to a dear friend.  I'll ship them to her on Monday and I hope they will bring her the best of luck.

5 weeks 20DPO

Progression

 Soon to come, my first belly shot...