14DPO BFN and The Green Eyed Monster

As the title says another stark white test.  Who am I kidding when I keep on testing.  My temps are dropping yet I whip out a test out of pure hope there will be the slightest visible line.  At this stage in the game I've gone to 99.9% sure the red wave will visit soon.  This has truly been a very emotional TWW.  Between seeing bellies and babies in the street everywhere I go, being bombarded with TV ads for either HPTS or different things baby related, and what seems to be everyone else around me getting their BFPs, I've been hit with a severe case of envy.  Don't get me wrong, if you're a good friend I'm thrilled for you.  But if you're a virtual stranger to me, I hate that you're pregnant and I'm not.  I will try my best to smile and wave, but in reality I'm thinking why you and not me and to get the fuck out of my face before I scream.


Symptoms

• cramps that are intensifying
• increased cm that has caused me to wear a liner while I await the bitch
• breast are become more sore
• nausea that can be explained away with the fact that I have sinus issues and ran out of my nasal spray.
• still bloated
• EXTREMELY emotional