why do I torture myself?

9DPO 3 days after my dip and I decided to test.  Why? Because I'm a glutton for punishment.  I have no will power and it's driving me insane.  Why couldn't I hold off till Friday?  Better yet why can't I hold off until I'm late?!  DOH!  Not in the mood for symptom watch 4.0 so I'm leaving it here.  If you're interested you know how to stalk my charts.