bitter

I'm finding myself to be a bit bitter right now, and I don't like it.  I'm seeing more and more ladies announcing their pregnancies, and all are due around the same time I would have been due.  Thankfully, these have all been online ladies, so it's not so bad.  But it still makes me bitter.  I should really be happy for these women, some of them have dealt with a loss like I have, and because of that I feel like an even bigger asshole for being bitter.  Ugh I hate myself right now.  To top it off, it looks like my body is acting like nothing happened and I'm fertile or starting to be fertile again.  Now I'm wondering if I should take the risk or just let this time frame go by.