Progesterone results are in...

and it's at 16.6! Well within the range the doctor wants to see.  WOOT WOOT.  So now I'm sure I ovulated this month and have been ovulating every month.  What I don't know if those numbers are indicative of pregnancy or not.  Here's to hoping they are. :)

why do I torture myself?

9DPO 3 days after my dip and I decided to test.  Why? Because I'm a glutton for punishment.  I have no will power and it's driving me insane.  Why couldn't I hold off till Friday?  Better yet why can't I hold off until I'm late?!  DOH!  Not in the mood for symptom watch 4.0 so I'm leaving it here.  If you're interested you know how to stalk my charts.

CD21 - 7DPO temp shot back up

YAY my temp went back up to 98.27 today.  I'm so hoping that I had an implantation dip that will truly result in a nice BFP.  Again, though only time will tell.  I need to stay strong and try not to test until later in the week.  I would like to wait till Friday.  Lets see if I have that will power.  My history has proven otherwise. LOL  


OK so between work, the doctors, homework and being a mom I'm exhausted so I'm not going to retype what I already typed about today's appointment.  Here is the cut and paste of it...


Anyways...my doctor was happy to help me conceive however way I was willing to try. He did a blood draw and I should know the results by Wednesday. He looked back in his notes, from when I had my last lap 2 years ago, and said that my tubes looked free and clear back then so he doesn't see why I should have any issues with my tubes. But if I want to get that procedure where they put dye in my tubes to be sure they're clear, I can.

When I mentioned my endo and my uterine lining he agreed that it could be a problem for me. But all in all he seemed hopeful and didn't think I would need medical intervention. Not that I want any medical intervention. I told the doctor that I'm not willing to go that route and if it happens it happens if it doesn't it doesn't.

He did looked at my chart and said my temps do indicate that I'm ovulating. So that's good. He found it funny that I was going about this in such an old fashioned way since there is so much advanced technology out there. He did mention IVF and said the he's sure that procedure would work almost instantly if I wanted to go that route.

Even though the exam hurt, stupid endo, everything looked fine. Now I just go back in two week for my follow up and results. I'm hoping to also go in and tell him I'm pg.

All and all I left the office feeling hopeful and know that I have a doc that's willing to do what I want him to do to help me achieve pregnancy.

CD20 - 6DPO Dip Baby Dip

OK so CD20 and 6DPO over here with a temp dip (97.83 from 98.29) almost or at my cover line.  The odd thing is that I had a dip just like this last month, also on CD20.  The only difference is the DPO day.  I normally don't dip like this and the last time I did, before last month and this month, was when I conceived Kev.  I can't help but wonder since we've been using OPKs and used them with Kev, that we are catching the egg, but it's might be having a hard time implanting.  If that's the case, then I know my endo is making this journey harder than it already is.  And if my endo is causing issues then my hopes for another addition will be just a dream.  I will not do any sort of medical intervention to conceive.  I already have two beautiful child and will take our lack of conception as a sign from nature that I'm done.  It's really sad to think that we could be done all because of my stupid body, but I'll learn to live with it, again.

I almost forgot to update about my DPO situation.  After looking at TCOYF and it's cover line I realized it was set too high (97.9 instead of 97.8).  After I made that adjustment, the software updated my chart and set my O date for CD14.  I could have avoided all that confusion if I just realized that a tiny bit earlier in the day.  Now I have a better feeling about asking the doctor for a CD21&7DPO blood draw.  I just hope he's willing do it for me.  I would love to know my progesterone levels and if I did indeed O or not.  I'll also ask him about the CD3 FSH test. 

cd19 3 or 5 dpo

So now I'm not sure which DPO I'm actually at.  I've had two different significant temp spikes and  3 different charting programs telling me different things.  TCOYF which is using FAM and OPK, marks me at 3DPO today making O date CD16.  Same with countdown to pregnancy.  Now, depending on which method I use for FF (advanced or FAM) I get two different O dates as well.  FAM give me an O date of CD14 making me 5DPO, and advanced method makes me 3DPO giving me an O date of CD16.  I would rather be 5DPO since that makes my LP longer and gets me closer to testing.  But if I'm only 3DPO then I would only have a 10 day LP, if AF shows when she should, next Sunday.  

However, since LPs only vary by a day or two, that would make AF due on the 26th instead.  I have had a short 10 day LP in the past.  But I know that's not optimal for implantation and sustaining a pregnancy.  Ughhh I hate this guessing game.  But maybe I am only 3DPO since I got positive OPKs on CD14 and 15.  And if I did O 12-48 hours after that last positive, or even the first, CD16 is very plausible.  The only thing with CD16 is that my CP and CM aren't really fertile. Yes, creamy is considered fertile, but ewcm or watery is best.  Combine that with the fact that my cervix was considered closed and medium feeling, it doesn't line up properly.  The only good thing with the possibility of O on CD16 is that the sperm has a better chance of meeting the egg as soon and it drops.  

Again, like always, I'm back to only time will tell.  *le sigh*

For good measure two progression pictures.   One with more light zoomed out and another more zoomed in less light.

cd18 4dpo...

And I feel so stressed and off it's not even funny.  I truly don't know how I'm going to conceive if I continue to be this stressed out.  At least my temp went up some more today.  I just wish that time would pass by quicker so that I can start testing.  I have at least another week before I even think about testing.  I'm due for my period on either the 23rd or 24th of the month, so I should have my answer within another 10 days for certain.  I just hope it's the answer I desire.

cd17 3dpo

Had another temp rise this morning, so I'm sure I ovulated 3 days ago.  Now if only my other two charts would line up with FF, I'd be good to go.  Hopefully I won't go nuts trying to over analyze everything and convince myself that we got preggo this month.  That's going to be hard to do, but I think I can do it.  I just need to keep myself and my mind occupied on other things.  You would figure between work and school my mind would already be preoccupied, but it's not.  Ugh time to find a hobby I guess.